Appreciate The Now

Sunday, March 07 2010

It’s really hard for me to realize sometimes that I have done a lot and I should appreciate what I have achieved thus far. I get on this track where I feel that nothing is happening with my career yet and that I am not doing what I love everyday and that I am not living in my dream city, etc. And all this bullshit just builds up in my head!! These past couple of months I have been doing a lot of soul searching and self examination. With some of my new “tools” I have learned,  when I get to these stages I’m going to tell myself first “thank you for sharing”  and then tell myself all the great things I have. I love my house, my friends, my job (which is not my career, but is the best job in the world to have while I am on my path), my health, my neighbors dog, etc!! Our minds are like this torture device sometimes, they pick at you and put you down and make you scared. I know this part of my mind is not me, it’s my programmed mind from the past, my programmed mind of what people have said when I was a child and put into my head. Life is a journey, a freakin big one at that, and I am trying my hardest to make my mind send me thoughts of appreciation, love and support. Instead of scaring me all the time into not achieving anything or believing that I haven’t.

Tell me I’m not crazy and that your mind messes with you too! And when it does, tell it,  “thank you for sharing” and then, “I am fuckin great”!!